Monday, September 8, 2014

The Path Ahead Spread

For myself I asked about what concerns me most right now, a work problem I have had that has been unsolvable. Organising myself, dealing with it has constantly stymied me. Sometimes I think what I am doing bores me so I abandon it, sometimes wonder if I am even on the right path at all.

Needless to say it's a been a long slow haul only to get nowhere fast or so it seems. Now, 8 days later, updating this on Halloween, I've begun to see that it did pay off...and big time. I have more space, a stabler system and online backup for the jpgs with Google as well as Crashplan. Alas though it all took 6 weeks to really to do all this and I was thinking 2. That means that my estimates are about 3x too small. I can see why I never get anything done if they are that out of whack. Does not really encourage you much does it?

Perhaps that is why the Pomodoro technique is the key.

1 your situation; where you are : 

  • NOW page of cups

2 the challenge you must to get to your goal :

  •  8 of wands

3 the light that guides you LOOK this is where you should direct your attention or look at,
look for 

  • 6 of wands

4 the path ahead : ACTION this is the action plan you should use to get the benefits
of your light better.

  •  3 of cups

5 advice for you on your path: AWARE

  •  2 of swords


page of cups id , 8 of wands, 6 of wands id, 3 of cups id, 2 of swords

These set of cards are from 2006 actually. I haven't done this spread in a long time. Years obviously. I can see that some of this is still viable but that's because the depression that I suffer from is still viable. I think that that is the real problem and to overcome that, I need to be focused and active. Goal minded. Of course that is not always easy to do...particularly when the problem of Vincent is still alive and worrisome. I wish I had a car so I could go and see if he is there. I wish that I had money so I could find out what's going on. I wish....

Today was a bad day. After weeks of suffering from nightmares I finally went back to Prazosin, the nightmare drug, and so now I am very tired, trying to catch up for weeks of lack of sleep. I am tired all the time to be honest. It's horrible. I take the mini amount of Minipress, 1 mg. That's all you need for it to do its nightmare thing. The first night I took it I slept like a baby.

I was amazed. Now I am sleeping so much that I cannot stay awake too long before I want to snooze again. From glory it's becoming horrible. I am constantly fighting the battle of sleepiness. I wish though I had thought of it long ago....

I mean several months ago when this all started i.e. June.I thought that this was all because of the birds chirping in the morning but now that I think more and more about this, I am beginning to think that the real reason was realizing I am on the verge of bankruptcy.

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